Morning Tears

last photo shoots with a friend

Tired.. Huffth, gak boleh ngeluh, tapi, beneran "tired" ini..

Aktivitas kuliah yang padat. Minggu-minggu ini memang dipenuhi dengan setumpuk midtest dan tugas-tugasnya. I enjoyed it, but, it's tiring too..

Baru sembuh dari sakit, Jum'at malam kemaren tiba-tiba demam, sabtunya tepar banget. Eh minggu pagi langsung aktivitas lagi ^^ Sampe sekarang masih flu, waktu tadi rapat KBM persiapan buat PKMD fakultas, si Akbar bilang "sakit yu?", Yuni juga. tau banget =="

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Aku belajar beberapa hal 2 minggu terakhir, namun, biarlah menjadi pelajaran untukku sendiri. :D

Ya, aku paham sekarang untuk suatu masalah kesalahpahaman, it's solved, yea, it solved, but the "efect", the words, still remind me. It's better for me to keep it by myself, crying and keep silent is better at that moment. Menjauhi jejaring sosial dan juga bbm tentunya, beneran "BETTER". and yay, it's work on me. I'm no longer thinking over it.

Dan untuk hal yang itu, ya, yang selalu menemani dunia pikiranku, selalu membayangi, well, finally I know how it feel. Setelah sadar, dan.. dan.. ya, melakukan ritual crying itu, lebih lega. dan sedikit-sedikit, aku menyadari (lagi) bayangan itu mulai menghilang..

Hari minggu kemaren sama anak-anak Yayasan Anak Bangsa dan beberapa volunteer drop your books ( Ka Nyun, Kak Anet, Sony, dan Ibu Irma) ke acara green day di halaman Masjid Sabilal, di sana ada lomba mewarnai untuk anak usia 5 tahun, jadi kita bawa Devi, Nova, dan Gina ikut lomba itu. 

I look bad, p.u.c.a.t.. yeah, still sick.

 

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Tuesday morning, wear this outfit to campus. It's cold-sunny day.

 

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 Beberapa hari lagi November berakhir.. dan Desemberpun datang. gak terasa udah mau akhir tahun.. Ingat desember itu, ingat workshop dan latihan alam Sanggar Bahana Antasari di Mandi Angin akhir tahun lalu, a really great moment that I can't forgot. :D 
November, selalu ingat lagu November rain dari Guns N' Roses kalau itu hujan di bulan ini. a bit surprising, huh? Well, some people might think aku suka lagu korea dan sedikit lagu barat saat ini. Banyak dan mungkin gak ada yang tau, aku besar dengan lagu-lagu the beatles, queen, guns n' roses, etc. My dad is a hug fan of that kind songs, a really hug fan. I'm not kidding, just ask him if you doubt me.
Jadi sejak kecil itu, dad suka dan selalu memutar lagu-lagu itu, mungkin aku gak tau itu ini judulnya apa, tapi, aku selalu diperdengarkan dengan lagu-lagu itu.
So thanks to my dad for always listening to that kind of song. Now your daughter slowly listening to them too. Haha.
Lirik dari November Rain diawal November yang mungkin menjadi favorit quote-ku
" 'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change"

"Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
On their own"
 Some time I need some time, on my own.
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And now currently listening to IU - Morning Tears while writing.. I really like this song, apalagi udah 2 hari ini, tiap pagi hujan lebat. tapi kemudian berganti dengan senyum cerah sang mentari. :D
Guess what, ini lagu dari awal dengerin waktu belum nyari translatenya udah stuck di kepala, totally love it.

English translation

 Wake up, my morning tears
I open my eyes in a hurry, today I shall cry again
For my tears are always sleepier than I
they'll only get up if I wake them diligently

* Though I cry over a dozen times a day, though I fuss like a child
Though I calm myself by stroking my hair, I know you won't be coming back
Today, tomorrow, and even the next day, though I am hurting so much because of you
Don't be sorry, it's all right because I still love you

That day, the day you left me
That day, and even now, the rain is still falling
Now I can no longer laugh
Even if I try to laugh, the rain covers my mouth

* repeat

That's right, I will wait a little longer, I won't forget till then
When I miss you, I will close my eyes, it's enough for me to meet you in my memories
I know that we have already parted, but I will pretend to be unaware
Because if I believe that we're broken up, that's when we'll truly have parted 

credits : weheartIU